Growing Up?

6 Desember 2009, Minggu

Saat ini gue tiba di titik dimana gue merasa teman hanyalah formalitas untuk jalan dan bersenang-senang. Bukan teman untuk berbagi apalagi bersedih2an. That’s why I really doubt the quote “a friend inneed is a friend indeed”. Skeptical. Apakah ini salah satu fase kehidupan menuju kedewasaan yang memang harus dilewati?

Semoga gue bisa menarik pelajaran dari semua ini dan bersiap diri ketika harus menghadapi situasi yang sama di kemudian hari.
Semoga gue bisa menceritakan pengalaman ini ke anak2 gue dan mewanti2 mereka.
Semoga gue masih bisa mengingat pengalaman ini dan membaginya ke semua orang di kala gue sudah tua nanti.

Saat ini gue sedang dalam proses lebih mendekatkan diri kepada keluarga dan Sang Maha Pencipta. Keluarga yang selalu menerima gue apa adanya, apapun sifat gue, apapun penyakit yang gue derita, apapun masalah gue, pintu rumah tetap akan terbuka lebar2 untuk gue untuk kembali ke rumah dan menikmati kehangatan yang abadi. Keluarga yang akan selalu bersama2 sampai akhir waktu. Sang Maha Pencipta, tentu saja karena toh kita akan kembali pada-Nya bukan?

Turun dan naiknya gue.

I love the way how Mama always send me messages asking, ‘lagi dimana?’, ‘pulang jam berapa dik?’

I love the way how Bapak always makes me laugh everytime I did foolish mistake, just to make me feel better.

I love the way how Mas Pandu yelled at me everytime I got nervous while driving or when I asked him to teach me to install this or that and he said ‘itu kan gampang tau, kamu coba aja..’

Thank God I have this lovelywarmth family. Hope we won’t lose this feeling. By anthing or anyone.

I just love you all, Mama, Bapak, Mas Pandu.

Sweet Kisses <3

Dimuat di Multiply ku juga

what i really need is..(are)....

here's my thingies that i really need now...

1. casio futurist
don't know why, by the first time i saw this watch in casio's website, i just fell in love with. and my herat broke when i saw friend of mine wore it. The blue one. huhu. Tapi..tapii gw berjanji harus beliii ni jam tangan. hahay, bagus banget ni jam menurut gw, keren keren. Walaupun gw ga tau fungsinya untuk apa aja, yang pastii baguus jamnya. And once again, i feel "arrrghhhh" when my brother said that he wanted to bought this watc to his GF. huhuhu...kenapa semua orang mau make jam ini? jadinya ntar banyak yang make deh hehe. This is casio futurist watch:



katanya si mama mau ngasi nanti pas aku ulang tahun, yaaah masi lama juga gituu. hihihi.

2. canon digital camera
yah, gw lupa lagi serinya. Tapi gw liat ini pas lagi di PRJ, di standnya canon. Mabk2nya nawarin..aww aww lucu banget. selintas kaya lomo, dan gw kira lomo. tapi ko lomo di canon? yah bukanlah ternyata. aww lucu banget dah. warna warni gituu. Cocok buat menggantikan si samsung yang sudah usang itu hehehe. Dan seperti biasa, gw ga ngerti specnya, yang pasti itu menarik. hehe.



mauuu mauuu..yang biruuuu pastinyaaa heheh..

3. headphone for my benjiii
yess yess..benji my benQ needs headphone.

4. Job
really needs job to fulfill my need above.

sebenarnya itu 'what i really need" atau "what i really want' si sebenrnya? hahahah.

eh eh, ternyata pemeran sam soon di 'my name is kim sam soon' sama si lee so jung di'Memories in bali' itu beda yaaa? ya ampyuuunn..gw kira samaaaa..hahaha
ini dia si sam soon (kim seon ah)



naah kalo inisi lee so jung (ha ji won)

aaahh...miripnyaaa...kalo gw ga googling, pasti sampe sekarang gw ,masi belum nyadar kalau mereka itu beda orang..ya ampuuuunn...

oya oya..in this is the routines activity i do in this holidayy:
1. wake up at 5, solat subuh and then go to bed (again)
2. wake up at 6, checking my facebook, twitter, ,multiply from my cellphones.
3. take a bath, turn on tv watched it with my mom
4. playing dvd korean drama series till drop
5. gitu terus sampe masuk kuliah
heheh ya engga lah. kalo ada yang ngajak jalan ya jalan,nonton ya nonton,nyalon ya nyalon. hahah..

see ya lateeerrr...

Can’t sleep…help me!!

ditulis tanggal 11 mei 2009...

Today, I just came to talkshow cita cinta held by BEM UI. The topic is “building your great cv and facing the first 3 month as a rookie..”. not like that actually, just something similar than that. For your information, I want to have an internship in this long vacation, as I said in earlier posting. And building a CV is the most important so I can join that company. The talkshow is informative and ‘life’. Just like the announcer and the ‘talkshower’ *what we called it refer to someone that gives talkshow?* Yeah, the ‘pembicara’ could attrack the attention. So far I satisfied with my choices to came to that talkshow.

You know what, I went alone to that talkshow. The talkshow held In Pusat Studi Jepang UI, and cluk..cluk..cluk I came with myself only. I believe, I will met someone there, it can be someone I know, or someone I don’t know before. Like when I came to entrepreneurship seminar a moment ago. I came with ina* one of the entrepreneur in my campus* and there, I got new friend from FKUI. His name is errr..*forgot* Dimas, if I’m not forgotten. Hehe.

Lucky me, I met kak Amel, one of my senior in my faculty. So I just sit and had chit chat with her along the talkshow. Lalalalalala…
There’s a lot of collegues wore yellow jacket. Ugh, my yellow jacket, where are you? *so long I didn’t wore you.. miss you my size S yellow jacket*

Ups, along the talkshow, I remembered him again. Huh. Miss that moment.
If only I could turn back time..and what?
Smiling at him? Glancing him? * uh, curi-curi pandang*
Okey have to go. Bye.

With lot of love,

Winda

So unconfidence

ditulis tanggal 10 mei 2009..

I just saw the program that showed a girl *a young girl, actually* that have been reached champion of ice skating of Asia. In that programme, the girl showed up her daily activities. From early morning she woke up and then having breakfast with her mom until she finished her school and practice ballet. Also showed up that the girl could play a piano nicely, take an ice skating lessons, and she went to a international school named BINUS blablabla in simprug which is they used English as their daily language and the teacher also came from other part of the world *halah*.
The point I would like to say is, I want, when I have Childs, I would like to send them to join various activities that they like. It can be joining ballet school, musical group, band, taekwondo, basket, futsal and blablabla that can establish their ability. So that they can compete with other child and be the best both in their school and in family. I hope I could achieve this dream.

Talk about dream, I have several dreams related to my marriage things, here it goes some of it:
1. I want working in an International company *or hospital*, that I shouldn’t have to wear any uniform like government employee do.
2. I want to married in young age, not more than 25 * wish me luck*
3. I want married with a psychologist, or a doctor, or an oil engineering, or a businessman. Not for politician.
4. I want to have 3 Childs. The 1st is a boy, and then the 2nd is a girl and the last is a girl. So I can go shopping with my 2 princesses and my prince could drive me to the mall. *haha..blushing*
5. I wanna go honeymoon-ing in Sumatera or Lombok. Pokonya a secret island lah.

Makin ngelantur..okey that’s from me today. Have a good Sunday.
Xoxo.

Aloner…maybe??

ditulis tanggal 9 mei 2009

When I feel alone, yes I’m alone. No, I’m not aloner. But it feels right when I’m alone. Yes it’s true. I confirmed it. How about you ? do you feel the same way with me?
Do I have any disorder? As I said before, i.m happy with it, I can handled when I have to be in a crowded condition. I like it too. But, sometimes I need silence. Peace silent.
Am I tired of being all alone? *this what secondhand serenade said* I have to answer this question by now.
Gosh..what I’m talking about? Huh..being tired of nothing. You know,,like you did something that *menguras* your energy but I’m not, but in last day you feel so tired.
oke, back to our topic. Just in a two weeks ago, I’ll facing the loooooong vacation. Oh yeah, vacation semester had just arrived. And I still don’t have any paln to do to fill that loooooong vacation. Oh, yes I have actually. I’m gonna applied to one of the best make up/drugstore company. It starts with U and end with R. haha. Yup that’s it! Just wanna have an internship. Lucky me if they accept me. And paid me of course!!. But, ahh..this lazy virus came and attack me sooo bad.
Doing this week:
1. Googling ‘how to make good application letter’
2. Check my active college letter
3. Study..studyyy for final exam.

Gosh..i’m going closer with world! Real world..!!
* lagi dengerin ‘closehead-berdiri teman’ jadi sakiit perutt..have you ever felt like this? Jadi teringat memori setahun lalu. Bedah Kampus UI and the guy. Uuh!! Really miss him.